Peace of night


Rushing to get 

Here ?

Through turmoil and heartache 

Misunderstood 

Because If you would 

No such pain ?

So I miss the moments 

Not fully alive

Yet grateful because tonight 

I can reflect

And tomorrow I can try 

Try again 

I can hear you rustling now 

Big yawn 

And a sniffle

I feel the warm air settle in the room 

I can wish for the open air breeze and the

Reflection of the stars

And see the glimmer of the ocean I missed

So when night falls

And all is still 

Not all is lost

Next to me 

Another soul breathes

His own wishes and dreams 

Not yet told

Hopefully not lost 

It must end 

With joyful heart

All is well 

Because my fruit springs

Not of this world 

Where let downs are commonplace 

When will I learn 

Be still 

Through and through 

Be still

Day and night

Rest this weary soul 

And find anew 

Spirit rises 

I will see daybreak 

And smile for another chance 

To get it right 

I will settle quietly 

Peacefully 

Here

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