Christmas Eve 2023
This was the moment I thought I'd been waiting for...the moment where life crystalizes and becomes clear but this year, I must have jinxed it: Put all the weight on it from the moment I opened my eyes this morning. If I spend too long, I suppose I could cry for what has passed this season...what remains, and the uncertainty that is beyond. But rather, and probably like always, better to focus on the light, that tonight, shines doubly bright against the glass windows. So that's it, if I failed this last year, I'll double my efforts to stay present in 2024. In reading bedtime stories until James falls asleep, or in my surroundings while driving :), present with the people and places I encounter by chance and most certainly by intention and choice. God, may my heart seek you above all else, to be truly good without asking or wanting anything in return but to hear your quiet voice when decisions need to be swift so that I may guard my heart.