Cruising America

Day 4 - we are here at Somerset, Co in our third ever RV park on the same trip. I am wondering what brings me out here and why we still have 6 nights and 7 days left. A part of me wishes for time to fly by so that I can back in the comfort of my own home, another very real part of me recognizes that moments like this, with my now 7 year old, will be a distant memory but one I hope he can cherish and remember; I hope I can remember it. 

We have had far too many smores and have added at least 1000 miles to the treads of this Cruise America rental. James is now fondly acquainted with his aunts Jennifer and Nancy but perhaps for him, more critically, time is being spent in the company of a gentle Doberman named Billet. While for me, other than a dwindling fitness level from too much time spent mostly in the seated driver position, I want to set an intention for this trip, I want to reflect on the questions I first posed to myself as I planned on making this excursion happen - was I trying to escape or explore the possibilities of a different life? How different do I want my life to be? What change must I make? 

My mind is actually quite blank right now. The river is taking it course right in front of where we parked our rented RV and dusk is settling with sounds of crickets and plumes of doused firewood flavor the clouds of the passing summer storm. We are safe and have found a rhythm. 

We learned the peace that comes with acceptance and respect. I hope this carries us. I hope the music of our day today sets the stage for a beautiful tomorrow. 

Anyhow, here's the link to our first How To RV Cruise America video: https://youtu.be/oRGgRnrFsbY


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