Notes on life, philosophy, and medicine

Living 37 years, it's only in hindsight that I am able to reflect on the choices I've made... and watching my 7 year old grow up, seeing the pain that I can put him through... how to be adult about THINGS when you are still figuring out what it looks like to be an adult, to make wise decisions and to not REACT.  I tell him all I can about what I know about love and goodness hoping and praying that he can do what I say and not what I do...  I pray for a tomorrow when I can do better.  All I can try to do is leave the world a better place than when I came into it for him and his friends.  So I'm rambling, what am I really wanting to say? I'm hurting all the time about the choices I've made, I've played out my past 100 times over and lived and relived it - yet seeing no different outcome - because here I am, and nothing can change that, but what's next? what can be changed? what choices do I make next that alter the course of my path and those around me? In all

We want to change the world, when the world we need to change is right here in front of us. As a nation, I feel that I can safely say we have had our issues and that we have tried to have these dynamic conversations about our core values and deepest held beliefs on the national stage but its been frustrating. Right/Left, somewhere in between... What felt easy was losing sight of each others' humanity  as if somehow we can just talk however we wanted about our principles and values and ignoring the personhood in front of us.  My hope is that we boil down our frustrations and we redirect our energy to where it counts the most, amongst our friends, families, neighbors and local community. Right here, right next to us, there is much work to do be done.  May we take the gains and lessons from this years' conversation and do what counts for the people that live right around us.  Because it is right there that I think we will see and feel change for the better. 

I’m a little bummed I didn’t do a proper reintroduction- but I have discovered a few things that may generally be true for people - of course you don’t know until you do your own whole 30 experiment so try it!  Here’s some of my random discoveries - peanuts interrupt my sleep - twice I added it back and both times I woke up at 2 or 3 and had trouble going back to sleep. I don’t think I’ll try it again; not sure why I would- I like my mixed nut butter from Trader Joe’s or almond butter from Costco. Corn makes my joints sore. Flour/gluten rich foods gives me a headache. Dairy, particularly cheese, I knew before whole 30, but after the onset of my runny nose was instant. Bizarre!  Sugar? I’m not sure but one of these food groups makes me tired and does not help me get up for some morning exercise. That’s it for tonight. But coming soon, I’m really excited to delve into what we are planning/doing with our medical practice. For now I’d like to share a few photos I’ve taken lately of some of